why oh why?!!

why does this always happen to me?! i'm not a bad person, i've always been nice to others and kind at heart. so then why am i struggling with breastfeeding BOTH times? first with ethan, and now with emma too.. is it cos they are so alike in temperament?

it's extremely frustrating and at times i really just feel like giving up altogether and just give her the bottle. but at other times, i'm stubborn n refuse to give in cos this is a battle i dont wanna lose. i've been thro it once and i really dont want to have to live thro that again.

it never gets any easier...