going mad...

i am. not emma.

she's really driven me nuts this evening. all the way from 6pm till now, she's been taking 5 - 15min naps! that's a total of about 5 hrs that i have been carrying her, feeding her, patting her, rocking her, etc... she sleeps, i put her down in her cot. and a maximum of 15 min later, she'll be up again whining/crying. it's a vicious cycle.

it's definitely taking a toll on my sanity... i pray these episodes are far and few between.

impossible

that's what emma has been these few days! she demands to be carried all the time. as if that's not enough, she wants us to WALK as well while she's being carried. the minute we sit our ass down on the sofa, she'll go 'eh eh eh'!!! she can definitely sense the stop in 'motion' so that's y she gets upset.

some people say you cant spoil a newborn by carrying them too much. is that true?

endless washing!

we had to change our bedsheets yesterday cos it was poo/pee/milk stained by... yeah, u guessed it. EMMA. not that i'm complaining, cos i know this is part n parcel of having a newborn in the household.

what i'm complaining about though, is that we have to change it AGAIN today! cos she's gone n had her "explosive" bowel movement this morning again. sigh... i cant understand why poo from newborns comes out with such a strong jet-like force, sometimes even shooting out from the back of her diaper. i swear, if she were any lighter, she'd probably be able to propel herself backwards each time she poos :|

we're fast running out of bedsheets as the weather these fews days has been ridiculously cold n wet for a summer...

why oh why?!!

why does this always happen to me?! i'm not a bad person, i've always been nice to others and kind at heart. so then why am i struggling with breastfeeding BOTH times? first with ethan, and now with emma too.. is it cos they are so alike in temperament?

it's extremely frustrating and at times i really just feel like giving up altogether and just give her the bottle. but at other times, i'm stubborn n refuse to give in cos this is a battle i dont wanna lose. i've been thro it once and i really dont want to have to live thro that again.

it never gets any easier...

back to basics

i feel like i've travelled back in time.. to the year 2006 and the mth september. its not so much the interrupted sleep, but guessing what the baby wants. when emma cries, the check list is pretty much the same as what we went thro with ethan:

1. is she hungry?
2. is her diaper dirty?
3. does she have wind in her tummy?
4. is she too cold? too hot?
5. does she just want to be cuddled?
6. is she having a fever?

if none of the above pacifies the baby, then we hv to run thro the list right from the top again. somewhere along the way, something will click and then it's peace again...aaaaaah.....

i really cant stand this guessing game. why cant babies just come with a lcd display on their forehead that tells us what it is they need?!? i miss my tamagotchi :(